The "Right Guy" Stigma.

All ive ever wanted is just to be happy but somewhere along the line i stopped being happy ive forgotten what it even feels like to be happy ive been so wrapped up in making sure everyone else was happy that i forgot about myself,My whole life ive heard that one day youll meet the right guy and he'll sweep you off your feet and youll be so in love well im starting to think thats a whole lotta bullcrap because it seems as if the right guy for me DOESNT exist and if he doesnt exist then im just gonna go through life dating all these losers who dont give a damn about my feelings i THOUGHT i had met the right guy for me he was everything i wanted...at first,I moved in with him then everything changed he was leaving me to be with his buddies and smoking pot behind my back everything was falling apart right before our eyes but we didnt wanna face facts he started leaving me home more and more and being gone longer and longer then the day of my grandpas funeral visitation he dropped a bomb on me sayin i needed to move home until he could get a better apartment i shouldve seen it coming then but i didnt he gave me only $35 to make it over a hundred miles to even get home and when i ran outta gas on the interstate and walked to the hospital to call him he wouldnt even answer his phone i called my dad to come get me and i just cried the whole way home i didnt understand what was going on because everything seemed so perfect just the night before boy was i wrong i got to my grandmothers house and everything was fine the first two days or so then he started just ignoring my calls and texts and wouldnt call me back after he said he would i shouldve expected it to be over then but i STILL thought everything was going to be fine and yet again the whole time i was there he ignored me completely. Fast forward about a week i get home and i finally call him on the house phone and his sister answered not knowing who it was and she told me that he was done and that i shouldve cooked and cleaned and i didnt understand where that was coming from because i did cook and clean every night i took care of him thats how much i loved him i wanted it to work so bad anyways i talked to him and he just kept repeating that we moved to fast and didnt know what he wanted we decided to work on things and be together once again i expected things to be alright between us but as im learning the hard way nothing is going to be alright between us because hes not even making an effort to work things out its all one sided and im starting to think there is no such thing as the "Right Guy" at least maybe not for me it seems every guy ive met is all the same its all a one sided deal i cant explain the hurt that i feel, something tells me that maybe just maybe im not meant to be happy or even get married and you know what thats fine with me im over it i realize nobody is perfect and everybody has flaws but i just want somebody who is gonna love me for me not what they cant get out of me or when its convenient for them.