Booooreedddd

So once again i am stuck at home with nothing to do my uncle,cousin,and dads friend are all going out to the bar and im stuck here doing nothing i am so tired of just sitting here i am bored out of my damn mind i mean seriously my cousin wouldnt even go to the lake w me today its getting old :(
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Success, i got over my boredom mom convinced my step-dad to let me go to the casino, well i got there and i was feelin lucky and i was lucky for a while i won close to thirty bucks i kept playin figuring well ok ill turn this into more BIG MISTAKE!!! i lost all my money i walked out with fifteen cents left lol but i had a good time which is why i went to start with but it woulda been nice if i couldve won some money lol but im in a much better mood thanks to that :)

Thats My Honest Everyday Opinion
Love,

Bre

Makes No Sense

So this guy i have been friends with since my freshman year of high school is now married well his wife freaked out on me today because of a remark that i made and because i asked him to text me because i was leaving this girl straight up flipped out on me it was pretty stupid in my opinion but i sat there and reassured her that i have absoloutley no interest in her husband other than friendship i told her this 4 times after she told me she didnt want us talking anymore (controlling much?) and she was deletin me off his page and if i tried to re-add him she would block me harsh i know well i think i got her reassured that its just friends that i want then she was like well were gonna be in town tomorrow i think we should hang out for hte first time and i was like ok but that makes no sense whatsoever to gripe someone out over innocent messages then to turn around and ask them to hang out i guess shes keepin me close to see if i try and steal him cause according to her hes a big flirt even though he has in no way hit on me in all the time weve been talking, most girls make no sense its stupid well its gettin late so im off to bed goodnight bloggers.

Any Advice?

Alright so my best friend came over the other night and everything and we can pretty much entertain ourselves well i had just finished watching Insidious and then we went for a walk on the gravel road in the pitch dark. Biiigggg Mistake i was so freaked out i kept looking behind me and totally got myself creeped out and im the kind of girl who loves scary movies and all things paranormal but man i was creeped lol. So lately this guy ive been sorta friends with for a while and everything is dating like crazy but he only talks about sex with me and he knows how i feel about it and everything but it seems like he doesnt care hes always askin if i would let him take my v-card but truth is i dont want him to but he kind of pressures me i like him but i guess he only wants sex from me, just today hes tellin me to masturbate and think about him and when i say no he persists why cant guys ever take no for an answer? i dont do anything to look slutty because im not im just myself and apparently im a tease?? i dont see how one guy even told me my eyes told him i was beggin for him to have sex with me but i dont ever realize any of this?? Any Advice for me?

Karma and such

So Lately it seems im having rotten luck in the guy department, yup once again im single the guy i was talking to all before and through bootcamp when i was in seperations and everything (i got discharged from the navy) decided he liked his ex better, allow me to explain. During bootcamp i was talking to him daily and everything was fine he said he couldnt wait for me to be home well i came home and he had been making plans for us getting married eventually and moving in together and all that well when i came home everything was good for about 2 weeks but everytime he came over he would start bitching about how i had given him "blue balls" ( i assume everyone knows what that is?) anyway i am a virgin and i am proud of my virginity because i feel it makes me stand out from all the other girls out there who are out sleeping with everybody i have something special anyways thats not the point well he started acting more and more distant with me so one night i confronted him about it he kept giving me excuses like he was trying to get back into the army and everything then it was i wanna be friends i kept at it until he told me he was still in love with her and he thought he was over her but he really wasnt, which would have been useful had he told me BEFORE he kissed me and got me liking him alot and to admit my feelings this seems to happen to me alot well he changed his excuse the next three nights i asked him if i even had a chance with him he said i do but the way its looking i dont, well Karma made its appearence to him the last couple weeks he tried to get his ex back they got in a big fight about it and she doesnt want him back well then two days ago his truck was stolen it seems like hes done some people wrong since all this is happening to him lately idk the reason but i know one thing i am moving on i refuse to be the rebound oh and btw he tried to act all flirty like he liked me again but you know what im sick of it so heres my song for today it kinda goes with this post :)

Feels like im startin all over again the last three years were just pretend and i said goodbye to you goodbye to everything that i knew you were the one i love the one thing that i tried to hold onto