Lately it seems that all my thoughts are just jumbled and I can't do anything about it everything is just chaotic right now I am just so frustrated and its starting to show I just want things to be the way they were before all of this happened sometimes it feels like I'm all alone in a room just screaming my head off and nobody can hear me and I feel helpless and powerless and it aggravates me more the things I used to want don't even matter anymore so much has happened in the last year that I honestly have no idea how everything hasn't fell apart sometimes I feel like that everything happens for a reason but then again does it? Is this all just happening to make me realize how alone i feel and how sometimes it seems like I'm the only person on my side I can't explain why I feel the way I do I just want it to go away I want to be the person they want me to be but sometimes it feels like I can't and for some reason I am so irritated because I try so hard and nothing works! I just don't know what to do at this point I feel like I'm in a small room and its just closing in on me every second and it makes it hard for me to breathe it really scares me sometimes how I'm feeling I just don't know.