Its been a while since ive posted anything on here, but i made a mistake, i lost my virginity to a guy i was not in love with it hurt really bad and it didnt last long, i got used and i cant forget it i want to let it go and move on but that was a huge part of who i was and i just gave it away like it was nothing the guy wont even talk to me anymore, the bad thing is i hear something or see something that reminds me of him i just start crying i cant even sleep sometimes when im thinking of him its just hard knowing that he did that to me he lied straight to my face he said he liked me and cared about me he was there for me when i was upset about my family until he got what he wanted then it was hasta la vista and i was left sleeping alone in his bed while he slept on his futon and he wouldnt even touch me, the next morning it was a quick eyes open hurry up and leave peck he didnt care a thing about me or my feelings thats what gets me how a man can be so insensitive i gave him everything i had and he just tossed me away like i was nothing he cared about himself and was only out for himself he made that pretty clear, it seems like ill never find Mr. Right ive almost given up looking because i only get hurt and im tired of being hurt he hurt me more than ive ever been hurt in my life thats the bad thing, the crazy thing? I have major feelings for him even though he did that to me i guess its just a reaction of loosing that and all but im not sure will i ever find a good guy? im starting to think not! Girls dont make the same mistake i have save it for marriage or at the very least someone your in love with who loves you to so heres my goodbye to him and all the bs that goes along with him! Forget you Brian Shepard your nothing but a jerk and i want nothing more to do with you!!!
